Good things happen only at the End

One needs to eat before they go to bed and the food just tastes better if there is an interesting company and delicate ambiance. That is when you eat not to refuel yourself but to connect with others, to smile, to speak, to enjoy and to live and live to fullest.

It is a new place that you are off to with a person you’ve know for a very short bit of time, you aren’t keen on impressing but curious to get to know a little bit more. You aren’t going to be what you are not but at least you want to be the best you can. Skies are as clear as they could be, wind factor is just about enough to keep you going for those couple of kilometers and just about enough topics and familiar common people to talk about.

On one side you want to be candid at the risk of sounding abrupt on the other front you are fighting the calculated, balanced and moderate sharp mind and admiring the beautiful person. Menu card appears to be one of your university question papers where nothing is familiar and prices don’t look very friendly but you don’t seem to care. Amidst of a very interesting discussion other person takes a bit of fresh mozzarella and as the person relishes it to the fullest…you are waiting holding your breathe for the person to complete the sentence that was left incomplete. And you find out by the time they gulped it down, turns out … they realized ‘You were smart enough and didn’t need any more background information to grasp the gravity of the situation.’ Well, sure I’m smart but I pay attention to details and I love to hear someone speak over the glass of wine. However, you smile. Look at the flickering candle, nice paintings on the wall and the steal a glance and one of you says, “The food is delicious or wine is classy and rich or the worse one….. So What else?”

You get some deserts, smile some more, talk a bit, brush by some more topics and put your coats on. It has gotten a bit colder and you do give it second thought but then you decide walk. Many excuses – you are full, too much of food, it is just around the corner or it is just nice to talk and let the evening sink in and enjoy every bit of it without any rush and chasing cars.

You know you can’t sing a song to save your life but you still hum…fumbling for lyrics. You don’t always find common ground to talk, to agree and to proceed but you walk and walk steady.

While you cut the last corner, you realize … all the good things often happen only at the end. Perhaps like the desserts after meals and warm hugs just before you leave.

When you know time is slipping out of your hand and it is slipping by real quick, you learn to make most of it. Only pinch is you can’t help but wonder, “Emm, well why couldn’t it happen a bit earlier…perhaps there could have been enough time…”

Life isn’t that calm, balanced, thoughtful and calculated and it also isn’t that immature, childish and spontaneous but it is an album full of beautiful memories, unfortunately we don’t have negatives left to take out some copies.

Neo