“Yup, it used to be great back when I was working for you guys.”
“It was just the last week; we sat out here on the cool breeze starring at the Pacific.”
There are hundred more of such sentences that I’ve said and perhaps thousand more that I haven’t in the past few days. Sometimes I get a feeling that my life might be going from best to worse as I only tend to come across things that aren’t wee bit less desirable than the ones I passed.
Or, my life is at a pace where I only tend to truly appreciate things in the rear-view mirror and while I’m at it, new things are just passing me by.
Or, I guess my life is just same old plain vanilla and only when I relive it through selective memories, I pep it up with some chocolate sauce, orange flavored wafer-sticks laid out on silverware
Or, something wrong with my wiring up in my head. Wherein, I’m addicted, every now and then to escape from my present I stray off into wishful past where I can manipulate things a little or maybe more.
A perceptive friend brought it to my attention that I need to stop feeling too sorry for myself, suck it up and get a move on. I quickly swallowed rest of my wishful memories and stories, quickly agreed with my friend and thanked my friend for the advice.
I truly appreciate the advice…..in retrospect.
But I really want to fix (if something is wrong), won’t I need to go back in the past to find the root of it?
Neo
i totally agree u cant just move on and start enjoying ur today n future without getting back to ur past to find out the root cause... ya its rigth sometimes we cant physically go back to our past n replay every thing but trust me if try to play it all back in ur head u will get ur answers n nbot only tt u might b able to enjoy ur vanilla then with may b with some ot brownie as well ....lol
ReplyDeleteYou distorted your friend's advice.
ReplyDeleteS/he didnt ask you to NOT "go back in the past to find the root of it".
IMHO, "stop feeling too sorry for myself, suck it up and get a move on" = "go back to the past, understand whatever it is that you need to understand, focus on your present to get to the future you always dreamt about".
I don't think you can't go back in your past. The past is past for a reason. What was will always be, but what's gonna come; that's where you have power. That's where you can truely change, and your future is goning to be what it will be depending what you do in the present. That is why every second is valuable, because if you let it pass by then it's lost forever and you will never be able to change it. Embrace the moment, don't dwell it what has been or what will be. It's in the present you can turn you anguish into joy.
ReplyDeleteSamudra , fair catch :-) Guilty as quoted.
ReplyDeleteMalin, very true. Totally agree with dwelling
Thank you for reading guys.